I can hear the crackling outside my window.
Between the police sirens and helicopters’ beating and distant voices yelling, I hear it spreading through the cracks in the pavement.
It’s the fire that grows from pain and frustration bubbling over into anger and chaos and it demands to be heard.
Well, I hear it.
And I understand where it comes from. I always have.
(I’m serious. Please believe me.)
The racism. The injustice.
Yes, I see it.
It’s one of the reasons I’m here.
I loved you and I wanted to do something to help.
I prayed to be a blessing.
I asked for the Spirit of God.
Maybe not enough.
For what it’s worth, you should know that I almost joined you yesterday, early, before the sun went down. Before things got crazy. Before the cops pulled out the body armor and shields.
But I was too tired. And too concerned with right and wrong and “the appropriate way to solve the problem.”
So I stayed home.
Now it’s 2am and there are sirens nearby.
I am not afraid because I am not the victim here.
But now I know that I am also no help.
And I have no answers.
Today is Pentecost.
We should be on Fire.
Instead, the city is burning.